Yesterday I ran my first 5K of this year (this is only my 6th 5K overall) and although it felt good to get out and compete again…I was not very competitive. I’ve let my training slide a bit over the winter and I could tell when I started the race. My legs felt very heavy from the beginning and with the finish line in sight I was worried my legs were going to give out completely, luckily they did not. My finish time was 36:44, not the 33 minute range I was shooting for so I’ve got lots of training to do before my next run in April. Also, I had to stop and walk twice during the race, that’s the first time I’ve had to do that in a 5K. I did stop and walk during the 8K turkey trot on the Thanksgiving but I could reason with that since the distance was longer. Needless to say I’m a bit disappointed but that’s ok, no where to go but up from here!
I have been horribly remiss in posting for almost two weeks. I went out of town for a few days and it appears I’ve let my routine slide. ~sorry~
As I’m sure most people have heard about the fiasco surrounding Charlie Sheen, I felt compelled to write about it as well. Not so much about what he is doing but more about how the media and public in general are handling it. Most people will say they are tired of hearing about it yet the only reason the media continues to cover it is because the public continues to tune in to those stories. It’s a sick cycle that no one seems capable of breaking; I find myself saying I’m only tuning in to see ‘if’ they are going to talk about it but that’s exactly what they want you to do…advertisers pay big money for spots during those broadcasts and so the cylce just keeps going on and on. The only way to stop it is to completely stop watching, which is unlikely to happen. Or the media could say ‘we’re not going to cover that story anymore’ which of course will NEVER happen, so we’re stuck watching what we don’t want to see.
There are those who get a sick satisfaction out of watching a celebrity self destruct; I guess they figure “we put them there so why can’t we watch them fall”. It’s pretty sad that this is considered entertainment.
Enough ranting about the media and the general public’s consumption of trash news…ttfn
Well today’s session really opened things up for me. I recognized just how much I’ve been stiffling myself when it comes to knowing what my passions are. Singing and songwriting are what really gets me fired up but I’ve been suppressing it because the ‘logical’ side of my brain has been in control. That little voice keeps saying things like: you’re too old, you’ll look silly, people will laugh at you, you’re not good enough…and the list just goes on and on. We talked about how unhappy I am by not following my passion and determined that I’ve got to reel in the logical side of my brain. It’s really been having way too much control over how I live my life. So now that we’ve determined what my passion is and what’s holding me back, we need to create a plan to overcome it and move forward. That’s my homework from this session. We meet again in two weeks and I hope to have my mission statement finalized and maybe even a song or two completed – hey, a girl can dream! ttfn
When you’re feeling down, what music cheers you up?
I prefer pop/dance music when I’m down…something like Katy Perry or Lady Gaga. Their music usually has a very energetic beat and it can pick me up when I’m feeling down. I can also put on some dance music from the 80’s which takes me back to a time in my life when it was all about partying with friends and happy times…”Play that Funky Music” or “Everytime I turn around I’m back in love again”. I can’t help but smile when I hear those songs again. ttfn 😀
Although I am still a little skeptical, I had my first meeting with a life coach yesterday. He seems very engaged and willing to help so I should stop my negativity and try to jump in with both feet. His name is Bob and he seems to have ‘heard’ it all before – I mean that in a good way; my problems are not unique and he’s worked with others stuck in the same place. He said we would start out by crafting a mission statement – now these things always make me feel like I’m treating my life like a business so I get a little turned off but he asked me to play along so I will. He started asking questions about identifying 3 things I’m passionate about – ok that’s my problem! That’s why I’ve enlisted his help – I can’t figure out what my passions are…but I played along and I was able to name a few things I ‘think’ I’m passionate about. Then he asked me to name 3 defining moments in my life – wow this is getting really deep now. Then he asked me to name 3 defining moments in my career – some of those were overlapping with the first. And lastly he asked if I had only 6 months to live what would I do with that time. Ok, I’m officially exhausted at this point but I have to admit I had a few revelations during these exercises. I guess I do know what my passions are I’m just afraid to go after them. He assigned me homework – get a journal and write all the reasons I can’t do what I want…that’s right, every thing that ‘little voice’ in my head tells me about why I can’t do something – write it down. This should be easy 🙂
Ok, so the first meeting went pretty well and I’m looking forward to our next meeting. I’m just so tired of ‘wishing’ I could do something else but never moving from the spot I’m in…as the old saying goes ‘etiher shit or get off the pot’. Hopefully Bob will help me ‘get off the pot’!! ttfn
Its late and I’m tired but I want to make sure I put up a post today.
I had my first mtg with the life coach today…I’ll have to fill you in tomorrow…ttfn
Share one thing that you learned recently.
This isn’t real recent but over the last few months I’ve learned how to play poker – Texas Holdem specifically. Not how to deal and participate but how to read others and know your chances of winning. I’m no pro but I feel more confident when I play and I win a few more hands than I used to and I keep my money when the cards just aren’t coming to me.
Bonus: Share one thing you wish you learned recently.
I would like to learn to speed read – I could get through so many more books than I do now and hopefully I would retain it too. There are quite a few ‘how-to’ books I’ve been meaning to read but it just takes so much time, so if I learned to speed read I could ‘kill two birds with one stone’
So I got a new phone last week, Droid Pro from Verizon. I really like it so far but I’m still getting used to it. One of the first things I did was download the WordPress app so I could blog on the go…but the damn thing doesn’t work, wtf! I made a post and saved it but it never updated to the web. I can view the post using the app but it’s not here when I logon to the website. I guess I’ll post a question to the tech geeks one of these days…until then I’ll just use the app to view posts and comments.
A follow up on my last post regarding Life Coaches; I had a face-to-face meeting with the coach I found online. He seems pretty nice, very upbeat and he’s sure he can help me. Isn’t that his job though -convince me he can help -but there’s no gaurantee. And at $175/hour I think I need more than just his opinion. I asked for references and he gave me two, I’ll give them a call this week but I don’t expect to hear anything but good comments. I’ll have to try to read between the lines if there’s anything to find.
That’s about all for now…ttfn
***Update: I figured out why I couldn’t see the posts from my phone on the web…I had saved it as a Draft – duh!!!!***
So a few days ago the Daily Topic suggestion was to describe your perfect Sunday and today has turned out to be a perfect Sunday and it’s not too far off from what I described. The weather is beautiful today, 72 and sunshine. We had some friends stop by with their new baby and we chatted for a while then we all went out to lunch at our favorite mexican restaurant. Then we came home and took our dog for a long walk to soak up the sunshine. We ran into a neighbor walking her dog and chatted with her the rest of the way. Now we’re back home and we’ll probably grill out for dinner and then relax in front of the TV for the rest of the evening.
What a beautiful Sunday 🙂 ttfn
I would not want to live forever if I was the only with that ability. I would want my loved ones to be able to live forever as well. I would like to live a very long and happy life and I try each day to make the right choices that will help me do that. I exercise, eat right (most of the time) and go to my doctor for regular checkups. Beyond that I don’t have much control, so I just focus on what I can do and try to be ‘in the moment’ with everything I do. I know, sounds like mumbo jumbo but if you have ever tried to stay in the moment you would know it’s not easy. There is so much distraction, not just externally but in my own mind. Constantly thinking about what I should be doing next instead of just focusing on what I’m doing at the time. I’ve tried to really focus while I’m brushing my teeth in the morning just to see if I could. I start out really good, mentally following along as the toothbrush moves from tooth to tooth but its not long before my mind starts to wander to what I need to do today or where I need to go. As soon as I realize what I’m doing I get focused back on my teeth. Try it yourself next time and see how you do.
Enough philosophy for one night. ttfn